Why must have it taken me going away from the place I have known all of my life to realize that I may have anxiety? I don't feel well. I am nervous. I have ever ending nerves since coming here. I don't know what to do or say. I don't want to go home for several reasons, staring with: it's only been two days. I haven't even begun classes. I have read the syllabus for two classes, and that is what makes me nervous. Speaking in front of people. I don't know how to do it. I am uncomfortable, my voice shakes, I feel warm for tens of minutes after. The last I spoke in front of a large crowd was almost two years ago, after it happened, I cried in my seat for almost ten minutes after. I don't want to be put on the spot, but unfortunately this class is required. How will I survive? Other than that, I do not have the syllabuses for the other classes and that makes me nervous. Was I already supposed to have them? I haven't been notified that I should, yet was if I'm supposed to have read them? Can I handle being here? I can leave if I want, I just don't want it to be so soon. Maybe I should have stayed? Will leaving after a year be okay? I don't know anything. I don't even have the medication I want to relieve myself of headaches and stress. In the end, typing this, I can't give any other reasons why I'm nervous? Yes, there's speaking and doing well in class, but why I am so nervous because of so few reasons? Is this anxiety? My stomach aches, my head is clouded, I shake, I feel unwell, I can't get over the nervous feeling. I need help.