Why do I feel nothing? At what age is one supposed to know what they want in life? For most, at the age of 18 students are expected to have an idea of what they want in life and then sent to a university to accomplish said thing. 17 is the age I am now being sent into what is known as "the adult world." I will be entering college, entering a world that is completely different from what I've known, and I'm expected to succeed. Why am I not happy that I am moving on in life? I was accepted into a well known school, with high  marks, yet I do not have any interest in going. Some may say, why didn't you just wait? But how could I? I do not have any confidence in myself and did not think I would ever be ready to move on. For that reason, I pushed myself into this situation. I don't know what I want in life, I have nothing I want to be. So many will say that you can go to school then later on find yourself, but I don't believe that. In our society, waiting usually means failure. I fear failure. I have so many different thoughts about college and the future, many questions, but no answers. No one knows the future, I understand that, but usually people have some sort of goal or want to keep them going. Me? I have nothing. My words throughout this entire text many have gotten jumbled or random, but I think it comes down to that. I have nothing I want. I don't know where I am going or how I'm going to accomplish it. My only chance is to try, but I'm afraid. I don't believe in myself. I'll try, don't know if I'll make it, but getting out my thoughts calmed me down for now. I'll go out there and try, mostly because I made the decision myself. I can't back out now. I'm just not sure how things will go being who I am.