There is one thing I want to do right now. I want to forget. I want to forget all of the mistakes I have made. I dwell on the slightest mistakes. The ones that everyone else had probably already forgotten. Yet, they can't escape my mind. They are stuck there. I am forced to remember these small mistakes that most people would have already forgotten or never even made a big deal out of. Why can't I forget these small things. I don't ever want to make small mistakes like those again, is that why I can't forget them? Is it just me never wanting to do those things again, so I remember what not to do? I don't know if that is true, but I hope there will come a day when I don't have to dwell on the things I have done. I want to forget them and move on.

Why is reality suddenly coming so fast? This past year of my life has been the most difficult in my life. I have shed more tears than I ever have before. So many bad things have been happening. My life may seem difficult right now, but it makes me feel even more terrible when I realize that people have it worse. It makes me so sad inside when I hear about death or illness. Right now those issues are affecting so many people, they are even affecting the people I am close with. I do not know what can be done though. To anyone, please remember not to take anything for granted. Please keep your family safe. Remember to take care of yourself as well. Life is not easy, right now that lesson is coming at me more than ever before. Please be safe, hold onto and appreciate your loved ones. Keep them all close for as long as you have them. We cannot change reality, we can only accept it.

In this world, if you never ask for anything, you will never get anything. You need to take action to get the things you want. Personally, I am not even one to take great advice. I stay quiet, never ask for anything, therefore I never receive anything. I want things to be different. I need to be more direct on things I want. I will try to make a difference for myself, I hope that others will speak up for the things that they need as well. Don't stay quiet, there is no harm in trying. What would be worse, someone simply saying no or the feeling of regret dwelling on you as time goes on?

It doesn't matter where you are or who you are with, if you don't make things fun  yourself nothing will change. You could be with the people you love and an amazing place, but when you aren't feeling happy, you can't enjoy yourself. Try to live life more positively, make fun for yourself. Don't be depressed, don't sit around unhappy; go out, be yourself, don't make things harder than they need to be.

What is it? Is it the weather? Is it the people around me? Or is it me? What is setting off this depressing aura? In the end, I'm sure it is myself, but how did I get to be this way? Nothing feels right anymore. What can I do. What I think I need to do is change the way I do things. I don't want things to be this way. I need to start fresh. I will clear my head, clean my work are, I will take new perspectives. This feeling of sadness, or feeling of nothing needs to go away. Being sad and depressed is not who I am. I was never this lonely person. I will not stay this way. I will fix things. It may take time, but I'm not giving up.

What does the future hold? Is there any way of knowing if things will be okay? There is so much potential for one and their future. I want to be sure that I am doing the right things. My future seems to be okay because so many believe I have great potential, but what if I feel lost? I don't feel like I could succeed. What if I am doing everything wrong? I do not want to fail in the future, but I feel that I am incapable of doing anything correctly. I can't make decisions on my own, I always need someone on my side, and  I am too afraid to take risks. Am I ruining my own future? How do I fix these things? How do I even know if I'm doing things wrong? I feel lost. I need help to make these decisions and figure out how to be successful. Though, how will I ever succeed if I can't do anything on my own? Am I a failure? Can I be helped? If I can, how?

Everyone on the planet has the potential to be and do something amazing. Anyone can change the world. Our minds give us the potential to do so. We all make positive and negative changes, because everything we do has an effect on the planet and the people around us. I want to do something that will have meaning and be good for myself and others. How will I begin this? I am not sure, but I have to keep and open mind and never give up.

Everyday is filled with new opportunities. You can make changes and start something new. The possibilities are endless. My goal: do something different that I didn't do the day before, but make it for the better. There is nothing holding me back, so where do I begin?

Have you ever lost yourself? Have you forgotten who you were? What you cared about? And who you wanted to be? I forgot those things. Each of those elements made up who I was. Before I was creative, happy, and enthusiastic. I wanted to do big things and never give up. When did I change. Who have I become? Now, I feel sad, don't have motivation, and feel lost and lonely. I have family, friends, and skills, but they don't feel important. I have never thought of myself to be depressed, I, who always used to be so happy, never thought there would be a day when I would be extremely sad. What do I do? How can I go back to being who I was. That time was not far away. Why does it seem to be so long gone? I want to be happy again. I want to be creative, enthusiastic, and spirited! I just don't know how to get there. I have not and will not give up. That future is in my reach. No matter how long it takes, a happy future is one I want to see. 

Who are you to judge me? I am another human being on this planet. I breather the same air, see the same sun, how can someone like yourself try to judge who I am? I may not be perfect in your eyes, but I am in my own. It shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks of yourself, only your opinion of yourself is important. People will judge for every little thing, don't let those comments bring you down. People in this world will try to bring you down for no reason at all. When someone tries to tell you that you don't matter, don't listen to them. On the inside they are as insecure as you are. Remember who you are no matter what comes along in life. You are important. Don't give up just because one individual doesn't care for you. You have a future and it is bright, you just have to hang on long enough to see it.

Imagination causes fear. 

Our imagination is such an amazing thing, so why doe it have to create something so terrible. Being afraid causes do many problems. Being afraid holds us back, it makes us afraid to try. It holds us back from our hopes, dreams, and worsens our reality. Can there be times when we need our fear? Fear for me only causes problems. To me there is so much to be afraid of. Why? I don't know. Does a greater imagination cause a greater fear? Can fears be destroyed? Will people always live in fear? It seems I could be afraid to hear the answers to those questions. My fears can't be put to ease, so I suppose the best thing to do is try to hold on and not let the fears you have take over your entire world. I don't know if that can be done, but one has to try.

There is communication for a reason. If one is not going to make an attempt at communication how can a problem ever be solved. Is it too difficult to just discuss an issue? What is the point in taking violent actions. Everything you do has a consequence. Adding violence makes matters worse. Problems will never be healed when there is no attempt to fix them. If everyone involved in the conflict isn't not going to make an attempt to resolve it, there is no point in trying to fix it. Sadly, there will always be hate. You can't always fix matters, but why make issues worse. If you aren't going to try and fix problems created, just leave the people you are hurting in the process. Life is difficult and it sounds harsh, but why live with hatred when there is a chance to move on? 

Why does life come with so many conflicts? It seems that there is always an issue in life. If you solve one problem, another comes up. Now, I know life is not fair, but why does there have to be so much suffering. I myself just want to take a deep breath and forget all my problems. Life is not easy, though we are string enough to handle difficult challenges. We have the ability so stay patient and handle and task give to us.

How can one determine whether a relationship between two people is good? Not specifically referring to a dating relationship, but everyday relationships with people. How do you know that this person is going to help you rise and not bring you down. In this world there are very few people who want you to do well. How can you be sure you are being surrounded by the people who will help you in life no matter what. It is difficult to know, should one just go along not knowing then wait to find out the consequence or try to see who and what will really matter for the sake of ones future.

Where does one get so much hatred? Surely no person is born to hate. Ones experience must have been truly terrible to be this hateful. It's not easy to get over something, there is a period of longing over something that has happened. Will there ever be a time when ones hatred can go away? Is there a chance that one can forget the past, accept it, and move on? I'm sure there is no way that it could be simple, but is trying to forget all that difficult when it will lead to a better future that is filled with happiness.

You are your own person. No one has the right to take away who you are. We let the judgement of others try and make us who we are. Others trying to change us doesn't help at all, it only brings us down. Their harsh criticism makes ourselves feel terrible, we become insecure and doubt ourselves. I understand that it is not easy to have self confidence or self esteem. It seems easy for others to just tell us to feel okay about ourselves, but in the end it is not easy at all. No matter how long it takes, I want to be able to feel good about myself. I hope others, just like me, others who doubt themselves will try to take a stand and ignore the criticism and insults. We are strong, we just have to see that ourselves.

The human mind is filled with potential. This potential can be used to do incredible things. Each person has ideas about doing something that will be great enough to impact humanity. Though, how does one think of this idea? These ideas cannot just be given to you by another. You as a person needs to take the steps to do something amazing. No matter how difficult the task may seem, one should try and give their best effort  to achieve such an accomplishment. Take the steps to do something you have always wanted to do. Think of things no one else how, figure out how things work, do not stop asking questions until you have the answers you need. There is no way of knowing if you'll fail, but the risk is worth it.

The people in this world have incredible ideas that can change humanity. I hope that I, someday, will have an idea that will be great enough to make a positive impact in the world. There is one thing that is holding me and thousands of others in this world back, that is the ability to speak up and share our ideas.